The Trauma of AUD He called. Exhale. Deep Breath in and hold. I’m quite tired of having conversations in which I spend the entire time double thinking. The first is simple: listening to my son. Engaging. Being present. The second is exhausting:analyzing tone, sentence structure, fact checking,watching the needle on my bullshit detector. And I…
Category: Alcohol: My Family Legacy
Addiction runs in the family impacting generations
The Alcohol Bardo – Between Detox and Sobriety
Sitting With Uncertainty The Social Worker from the hospital called this afternoon – she wanted to tell me that she had been unsuccessful in her bid to have the doctor order a psychiatric assessment. There was no medical reason for him to stay and he gave all the right answers about being on the right…
My Son Detoxing Alcohol in ICU
Fragile Hope – With Edges I left off with My Guy in the ICU. Yesterday I got up at 4:30 in the morning so that I could take my time getting ready to leave by 6am to get there for 7:30. I didn’t want to rush. I wanted to be calm. I needed to call…
The Next Generation of Alcohol Addiction
What We Still Didn’t See In 2023, I learned that my oldest son had an alcohol addiction. We call it Alcohol Use Disorder now—AUD. It sounds more clinical, more manageable somehow. But there is nothing manageable about watching it take hold of someone you love. I didn’t learn about it gradually. There was no slow…
My Family History of Alcohol Addiction
Over 100 years of alcoholism shaped my family—and for most of my life, we didn’t even see it.